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fish tail skirt

Zhuchao Min

kid, we often play a strange game, is in the hospital dormitory behind the botanical garden, watching a block of flats on the western unit of the third balcony to dry the skirt. It is a dark blue skirt, long way to the bottom tightened, the edge because of the sudden tightening of the bottle open, a gust of wind, the dark blue long skirt swaying gracefully, like a fish cruising in the water, so We call this skirt to fishtail skirt.

but a skirt, what we should look around every day Yangqibozai? However, the fishtail skirt is not an ordinary dress, it is our unique skirt hospital, we began to find it, I felt great. We look at the first day of the next day watching, the third ... ... the whole summer, as long as the standing botanical gardens, with an appointment we will see, that time, time to fishtail skirt hanging on the balcony.

Health is the first time for drying on the balcony to see who fishtail skirt. He is much greater than we age, repeating again and again, but he does not fear us because of repetition and, on the contrary, we fear him because he's tall and Popi. Hot weather, we will gather at noon at the Botanical Garden in general play, to catch students standing in front of us by surprise, he stood there absolutely awe-inspiring, we must listen to him, had to listen to him, do not listen to him, certainly not either. Forest and catch a class of students, but he had to catch students a short head, in a game, catch grabbed Forest Health, Forest is not satisfied, strongly break, to catch students shouting angrily - your mother bastard, I would like to mutiny? Health and legs in time to kick, throwing himself on the forest floor. Students do not catch Jiehen, grabbed forest clothes, holding a fist asked: in time to see students, of course, did not see in front of the fist shaking. He found an opportunity to break free hard drive forest health, run.

catch students shouted:

Forest's eccentric mother, likes to stand in the alley between the dormitory shouting forest - of children. Forest will be running her mother, indifference to her mother pull upstairs. Similar Jieduan catch students shouting, and this is his good gate. He humiliated me this: your dad took to the streets yesterday and a woman, caught by your mother ... a child is always fear the threat of a fist on flesh, and family scandal, or similar to a child's mind is often the first secret to understand life of loneliness and shame. Loneliness, shame and fear around an axis, turning it our destiny as we grow, they must follow and grow, until one day, we clearly see: the axis of shame and fear of violence is like a provocation.

we fled in the forest to witness the rush of raw powerful provocation to see him try to escape, if escape, on down to him.

day, to catch students suddenly appeared in front of us. He is quite self-satisfied, pointing to the dormitory - look, you see. We followed his finger toward the west by the dormitory looked. Rush of life we ​​see the third floor West unit balcony.

Oh, a beautiful dress.

driven health is despicable that we sigh, he called us stupid, Hanzi, the teacher scolded him sold to us all.

you are illiterate, cough, you discover anything?

dark blue, or a long skirt, skirt because of tightening bottle open, a gust of wind, the skirt like a fish tail cocked, gracefully in the wind to draw to draw. I could not help but exclaimed: fishtail skirt. Immediately echoed by other partners.

to your mother is stupid, did not see it ... ... every day at noon after a fishtail skirt hanging on the balcony?

We looked at each other.

I know that woman have a bath every day at noon, her mother a bath at noon to ... ... really shameless.

we stay in a daze, his eyes kept looking at the moment as the fish in the water cruising like a skirt. Bath at noon? This number gives the stimulation means that people feel mysterious, and give people a sense of ambiguity.

woman, is laborers.

catch the eye eleven students get swept our faces, as if - we hear the word must also laborers and laborers are inextricably linked, the resulting proliferation of his superior, and we really hung his head or eyelids.

this time for students, all of the contentment that he collected and then spread all kinds of rumors. He can not show off, and his mother shortly after his birth with a construction foreman ran, the origins of his name is also funny - just in time for his grandfather's 60th birthday, his father was the hospital cafeteria The chef, who lived in the cafeteria next to a small house. Canteen is the gossip of the trade center, all kinds of rumors and news in this together, and then through the mouth, such as various types of seeds as sown. Got some raw natural rush that we never know the rumors and news, he relied on selling gossip we draw the line. We do not believe what he says is true, at least in my mind is full of contempt for his spread. This is also how it? Contempt can only be in my heart, and even some that are not in the face.

ha ha - quack - drive health developmental stages of the voice as ducks, abnormal laughter issued harsh.

my mind wondering, how much the hospital can not be considered, which live almost familiar, but we really have never seen that building units on the third floor room where the woman the West, we only know that there is a retired elderly, their children are outside.

fishtail skirt woman, she is who? Her bath every day at noon, drying skirt, she is a laborers ... ... What a surprise, I seem to smell the smell of blood.

In fact, the drive alive or right.

later, we really see, after noon, third floor balcony on the west unit will be dark blue fishtail skirt swaying in the wind on time, as one in the water the fish swim freely Xiang.

she take a bath in the afternoon ... ...

shrieking rush of students revealed that he does not clean the psychological. Yes, I think it is, he is not clean, he would have Zhuoxia obscene, feel blush. Even the forest is also embarrassed the boy, but he did not follow the sharp, but embarrassed smile. In our vague understanding of where bathing is a term related with the body, while taking a bath at noon, in clear violation of some of the conventional, the pernicious influence of bad dirty. And a guy has to repeatedly say that these poison words out loud, I even do not feel clean.

However, I can not scorn to show it. I am afraid of him, this time for older students aged me, just a grade higher than me boy. He was my childhood nightmare. He would take advantage of people not looking, grab my hand things, threatened me with his fist - that out, I beat you bad! His game and pinch my hand, and even pinched my face ... I vexation shame, but students will quickly catch up clenched fists, pressed my nose, and said: see? ha ha ... ... quack ...

I try to avoid. I lie in their own balcony, looking toward the back of the Botanical Garden, in time, or not born. Catch born in, I would dodge to the house. Students not catch, I ran wildly down a gust of wind.

that day, came downstairs again and shouting, asking me to go. I will lie on the balcony of view, students do not rush, and then flew down the stairs. But we shrugged and decided to partner the opponent, students catch the palm of your hand palm down on top of us. His palms up, and I became partners. I distress, want to go back, but I ran to catch students pull, so they come to Forest.

I'll show you a place to play, to catch students leaned in my ear. I smell the garlic odor in his mouth, nausea, almost vomiting.

my hand was forced students clenched raw so few want to break out, but every once struggled, but was driven health clenched tighter, more pain. I can only follow the drive to run raw, piercing the dormitory, the dormitory went back alley, then ran out from another alley, then ran back to the east of the dormitory behind. Corner there is a Jianyi Peng child is left behind shed infrastructure, which has a brown leather cushions, a simple hut on the corner folded lengthwise, leaving just a Dunshen gap. I have a sudden shortness of breath up to severe heart pound, beat, and catch students clutched my hand is not relaxed, his duck-like voice screech of laughter, that we hide inside the mat.

not what I say, my first time for students to go into. Mat in the gap can only accommodate one person, a long sigh of relief, I whispered:

just Well, I had found here, and I hold you in..

Catch students have to climb in, hugged me, he knelt down, Tuizi open, caught my thin body. I heard his heart beating in the pound, it quickly jumped out of my voice, my hands were raw hands to catch hold, and I feel suddenly very hot behind, was increasingly hard things conflict. My body stiff, and can not suppress flowing sweat, the sweat flooded forehead, eyes, strange uncomfortable, my voice choked with - put my hand, I want to wipe sweat. Snot dripping out of my nose.

students not only did not let go in time, but held my hand to my back, his side move under the body, my body straining forward bias, the ear is the time for students shortness of breath. My hand was warm he put a hard thing, my tears to trickle trickle drip, nasal discharge becomes bright line pull. Health and let go of my hand to catch a little backwards movement, was about to pull his pants, shed their outer voice sounded Forest - ah, there's a shed, they are not hiding inside the bar.
I suddenly came

power, but in time to re-hold my hands raw.

minor forest their footsteps, no voices, then footsteps sounded, they left. Health and re-open in time my hands, I stood up and Teng, H to the mat down, and I quickly skip the mat, rushed out of the Jianyi Peng child.

corridor of wind in my footsteps running speed, blowing whistling sound, raised his right hand cover my nose, hands and nose were bright liquid together, I attend to separate them, tightly clutching his nose, climbing stairs, go home.

no one at home, I feel lucky, because I jealously guarding the secret to a sense of shame. A severe beating heart slowly slid from the chest voice, the tears will not stop the ground rushes out. I opened his mouth, wah-wah cry to yourself, cried a little, tears dried on his face, feeling abnormal throat dry. Bring hot water bottle, full of water in the cup rising from the heat, I summarized tight lips, and slowly near to the cup, just a small saliva swallowed, immediately jumped up, his lips a bit hot.

desire to drink more and more intense, filling from the camphor tree forest in the wind climbed to the balcony. I put the cup back-to-room balcony, lower the eyes, the eyes adjust to the distance from the cup, tried hard to deny the excitement of camphor tree grove. Forest sharp voice came - Ha, you had Duohui you go home!

Ga - quack - Health and harsh laughter to catch me completely Looking back, I returned to the room. They gather together, probably spy on the fourth floor is washed in the bath at noon a woman and her fish tail skirt. Laborers. Words echoed in my mind, I was basically agree that the woman is wearing a fishtail skirt laborers, or I am willing to believe that now allow time for students fear, is certainly laborers, and if the fish tail skirt out, and I together, if only to stand with me a moment, standing in front of ... I catch students emerge out of eyes to catch the attention of raw fear.

you eat lunch tomorrow to come here, I tell you a secret. To catch students using voice commands told us. So, tomorrow will definitely catch students to garden. He came, not necessarily someone else will come, but speculation seems to catch our mental health, his eyes eleven swept us, the threat - you hear? Traitor is no good end.

to our next gathering in the garden neat. Rush of life we ​​see the third floor West unit, but not dark blue on the balcony of the fishtail skirt. Health and rattle in time with a smile:

with me.

we follow the drive straight to the students below the windows closed, facing the fishtail skirt woman of the house.

quack ... ... her in the bath and saw no?

our eyes opened wide, faintly see the windows did not pull the curtain on a vague silhouette. She certainly ########## ... ... catch the voice of students in the hot midday sun Bai Shengsheng, exploding our ears as Rolling Thunder. See you soon see ... ... pointing down to catch students can only see a closed window, shaking the glass windows of the fuzzy shadows.

really do not know shame, one at noon on the bath.

my hands in his skirt pockets, pockets with a new automatic pencil sharpener, it is my father gave me a birthday present. My right hand and hold pencil sharpener, palm full of sweat, pencil sharpener with my hands tightly tired, strange uncomfortable. I could not help but pull out, back to the camphor tree, facing the corridor of the alley, drafts blowing, palm away the sweat and pencil sharpener on the Ni Hua. Pink elephants, naive, quiet crouch in my flat on the palm.

beautiful. All of them to look on the forest elephant, the tongue praise.



I am angry, flushed face, grab the elephant, but the students catch hold of my wrist, I Wan Jitian give you, cheapskate, to see how I deal with you.

Forest as early as they ran. I am weak, timid mind, whispered to ask, then, that a few days you have me?

catch students are molded into the right-hand fist, click, click - abnormal joint sound harsh.

I turned, the sound of small repeat: That, that you Wanji Tian will have me.

ha ha - quack - I accidentally hit you called laborers. Drafts to catch the words to my ear raw, my eyes wet.

sixty-one day, the school opened the rally on a holiday, our holiday home was advertised for students to come out strong, the name of our faces all red rouge, lipstick lips painting a beautiful, female Children also described the eye shadow, one by one like actors, wherever the attention by the long-term, these full smile stare makes us more proud. Students from the school yard return directly to the back of the Botanical Garden, of course, feel how to play today, are not outrageous. Students actually do not rush, I was bouncing around the game join the ranks of their forest.

I know a place, you have not been to ... you dare to go there to play? Forest fingers to a small hill outside the walls.

Who dare? We do not want to reveal today the day weak, because it is playing. Out of the hospital dormitory area, toward the right, is that a small hill, I seem to know, a small hill where a child is a special burial area is not large, there is also some of the flowers, said the garden.

look around, or did not see the rush of Health, assured to end them with the forest. Just left the hospital dormitory door, we were the dog's tail grass and roadside grass to attract the sun,Cheap nike shoes, and hands of one person pick up a lot, forest rely on a higher level than us, laugh at us, I retorted:

forest immediately show off, mint grass, mint is used to produce, and you seen it? You thought it was a long tree, or buried underground.

We looked at each other, in unison said, Do this and you find out that we now see.

Kazakhstan, to go toward the front of the hill,Adidas running shoes, you can see that you do not know a lot of flowers, banana mango know? Wild strawberry seen it ... ... forest to a halt, stop there with his pace, we followed to a halt, eyes look to shoot straight out from the mountain Qiu Zhulin in the woman, she was wearing sunglasses, hair York back into a bun brain, surprisingly, her neck so I thought the image of a giraffe emerge immediately, even her feet, it is sky-blue fishtail skirt skirt, tail-like shut her pace may be bound, In this way, her posture looks side to side, rather like the fish in the water rolled swaying.

washing bath at noon a woman, a woman wearing a fishtail skirt, a labor camp after the release of a homebound woman parents' house.

summary is actually a lot of women back in after our eyes have disappeared, and her mysterious atmosphere incites our eyes, so that we always want to peep in, day after day found something, but she In addition to invariably wash bath at noon, on the balcony to dry her sky-blue fishtail skirt, we know nothing, but her interest to us but did not decrease. And how much control of her situation to become partners in a show of force in a symbol, at least, to me, I have an impulse - contact her, resulting in contact with the ground is not entirely due to fishtail skirt women themselves, but because I psychological fear of drive health, what they have contact, I do not know.

through an elegant small bamboo forest, the little group of graves in front of me. We help each other he gets a few girls hand, toward the forest we play a grimace, and the other boys immediately respond, Ming to play a whistle. Forest excited to get close to pulling a burial mounds on the lush grass, said: Come, this is mint.

This is a cluster of very common plants, although growing lush, but it leaves stout, thick meridians do not see what kind of baby. Forest pulling a leaf, we are careful to taste smell - the hospital's child is most familiar with the taste of mint flavor,Louis vuitton purses, we bow to one smell, the same excitement, sure - it really is mint grass.

Come see, this actually a mound of flowers and fruit. Another boy willing to become the center of the forest, the bamboo forest graves on the right-of-a shout.

is certainly that of a woman washing bath at noon sent, is it really her son? Boys shouted cushions our pace accelerated.

a small wreath on the graves, mainly of pine needles of some evergreen, mound the tombstone placed a bouquet of flowers before the really, there is a basket of fruit, there are apples, peaches, strawberries and bananas.

tombstone engraved: son Oncidium tomb, following the date of birth and death is actually 1978--1986. Forest said, yeah, just one year younger than me, but unfortunately, he only lived for eight years. Next to the boy added: a year and ah was dead, her mother more sad.

I screamed: I wonder why the father did not leave Oncidium if Oncidium no father?

Oncidium? Oh, you mean the premature death of the child, how could he not my father.

you know his father?

Forest bared the nose, said pipe his father who is? However, your questioning silly, without a father, how would this - text them?

I subconsciously shake the next, near the forest to them. Catch students went on to say that a woman can wash noon romantic bath blanket, wrapped around other people her husband has a child, his wife found someone else cut the text by heart, she actually killed the people with a bottle.

bared bared to the wind blowing in our ears, coming far out of blowing over the sound of bamboo leaves, clear and ethereal. Time for students in our more and more proud of jaw-dropping silence, saying, hey, you know, that a blind woman, so she rarely went out, is also wearing sunglasses around the scarf out of her parents she has caused trouble can not lift their head in the hospital every day drive her back to Shanghai.

why she did not return to Shanghai? I know from my sister in the mouth, Shanghai is China's most prosperous areas, particularly beautiful women, next to a skyscraper one, my sister's dream is to grow up to Shanghai.

She has neuropathy, Shanghai can not hear the word, heard in Shanghai, she was hit himself. In time for my health, Ziyaliezui, hands folded together, twist the wrist joint sound issue.

I do not believe that the time for students, he fool, to know what a dirty Cotyledons, by cafeteria Azeri Tomorrow, all day long to collect pieces of language and gossip around trafficking. But I can not criticize the export, turned eyes, do not give any chance to catch students.

How dare you tell your sister that I bully you? Health and suddenly catch sneak behind me, behind me suddenly poked in the next. I have not turned around, but that stupid bully forest went, shouting forest

this pencil sharpener is this? Driven health suddenly took my electric pencil sharpener, sharing in his palm. He stared at us in turn asks - is yours? Are you?

forest they shake their heads in turn, asked me, catch of Health issued a harsh laugh, I could not help move the body, the hurriedly shook his head. Health recovery driven pencil sharpener, a strange tone: twisting sound.

the summer, we took peeping psychological, botanical garden earlier than ever before to much, and now we not only spying on the balcony of the fishtail skirt, but also in the bathroom shower of shadowy figure .

Finally, we disappointed. We unexpectedly found that the third floor bathroom window wide open, a woman does not take a bath, but not on the balcony swaying fishtail skirt.

rush of Health issued a harsh laugh, hey, do not bathe ah fast in the afternoon, not sick?

she doing? We further explore the trigger speculation of interest. Driven health proposal: We bet that if a woman who would knock on the door of washing bath at noon, to saw her face, and her speech, the pencil sharpener on who should. Pencil sharpener was driven out to students, sharing in his palm.

always been me, I almost scream. I eventually did not say anything, I have an idea, to fishtail skirt woman has, through the laborers to subdue my fear to catch students.

she and I touched a few times, I knocked on the door of her house to see her doing. I volunteered to drive students apparently surprised that he was a little stunned, I take advantage of his daze of the moment, steps have been taken.

turn into the middle of the corridor, I just hear my heart beat, pound, knocked my chest. My pace did not slow down, back of my head they can feel puzzled surprise even admire the eyes, the eyes of these unwarranted move adds strength and my courage to try. I said to myself, I was knocked on the door and see a woman doing that thing fishtail skirt.

disturb me if she felt she would call me hit me? Burst of fear, my pace significantly slower, and I can not go back, I know to go back may be more serious consequences. Perhaps I should speak with her next words carefully, said she's very beautiful fishtail skirt, and her neck like a giraffe as beautiful.

stairs, I suddenly thought, perhaps, she just went to the bathroom shower, so good, I stood outside the door, so she finished bathing them, then turned and ran, and then tell the students to catch They said a woman washing a fishtail skirt noon bath, washing her fishtail skirt, she said she was soon going to - yes, that she went to Shanghai, I thought to catch students who said she was working in Shanghai, back to Shanghai nice ah.

I heard the noise inside, the room seems more than a fishtail skirt woman, there are other people, I sigh a little. Do not let your day quiet - a hoarse male voice.

thunderous knock at the door together with my heart beating inside voice suddenly quiet, then something fell off, broken, rushing --- brawl - not a lot of things stop down off the ground, my hands did not stop knocking down.

Who?

I - I deliberately dragged out loud a few beats.

door opened, and on the ground and broke all the glass, bottle, cup, bowl, and two large dark blue vase. Fishtail skirt woman firmly relying on the living room TV cabinet, she is obviously for my unexpected knock on the door and the panic, already sunglasses collapse in the face, carefully toward the back side.

old lady looked at the floor of broken glass, heartache, holding hands, toward the fishtail skirt Woman scolded - you disgrace our old head, you go away, roll - open -

old lady to the door of my fingers. I know the old lady will not want me to go away, but the old man seems to have misunderstood the old lady, then, is to skip the broken glass to the door, did not he want to drive me away?

I hurriedly raised his voice, decibel staggering, downstairs to catch students do not know whether they can hear - why do not you back to Shanghai? Shanghai more than good - and suddenly, a woman covered in Shaikang wildly fishtail skirt shake more than a woman cried shrilly up. I continue to call - you so beautiful, back to Shanghai, Shanghai will have your home ah -

wide-eyed horror as the old lady, old man turned, however, too late, fish tail skirt next to a woman picked up a fruit knife, toward the amputation of his wrists and chest, blood spatter. Warm sweet breath suddenly filled with fishy off my face with warm water droplets glide.

I hurriedly turned around, gallop forward down the stairs, on the stairs, to catch students who surrounded me: what happened? Ah - have blood on your face, laborers kill you?

suddenly, leaving time for students pencil sharpener, flying lead, they followed Zuoniaoshousan forest.

I ran with, just lift the leg, and stopped, facing hard time for students shouted back: fishtail skirt woman to kill herself.

until the semester begins, we no longer gather to play to the Botanical Gardens. I adhere to the country-in-law holiday, the day before the registration, I went back to the hospital. Students encounter in time I quickly turned her eyes, and dashed away. But I know that he is not fear. Years later, I remembered the woman's own offensive fishtail skirt, and suddenly realized that her fear and fear drive the non-students, because the - axis of provocation of violence like the other side of a shame, and the other one is not ashamed.