Poor youth man 's luck Diary (c )

home mother in the third part, I always thought that getting on very well
2006 年 9 cloudy Thursday 28 October
delivery to the F County is my home, I have not hesitated to take the chance to return home to see. The last time I was back in 2003 when the New Year. At that time, although my situation worse, but not to the utmost, in front of their parents also put on a smug look. Later, they can not go back, because I know, I have installed does not come out. You have seen the television camera under the mountain farmers who calm it? They do not listen to the director's instructions to play a smile, life, has made them lose the performance of amuse. I, is such a mentality. But, I was acting in front of their parents. But I think they. Think of them, I think of my situation. I want to do for them, but I do not have this capacity. The gap, heartbreak. A long time, I numb, and occasionally think, and immediately turned his thoughts. Only a track of the heart that throbbed, which comprise my nerves. The shire to F, is the instruction to my home, I can not past his home without, I can not, I must go home to see. I paid goods in the F County, sat for over an hour's drive, and finally, a village standing on the intersection. This familiar little way, and I seem to resound with the laughter of childhood, small partners. That joy, that filled the air in the familiar taste, touch my psyche in waves. Now, my sons, my Labo pioneers, stood strong in his homeland. Mother's cauliflower fields on the roadside grass cutting pig, the wind flowing gray cilia, crouched body like a bow. This is her life. I wanted to call out I coughed gently. Mother turned around, after a moment's surprise, his face sunny as Ju. I walked over, took her mother's hand sickle, helped cut the grass pigs, large dew of tears to fall big drops. In recent years, this is the first time I cried. The mother's guilt, not the amount of tears rinse. Night,Christian Louboutin Online, in the misty light, I accompanied the parents to speak. When his mother heard that I was boating to F when the shire, was very happy. I smile a little. I choose to call me mother, scold me for nothing, call me black sheep, that is the most grim curse me if it does not matter. I was afraid my mother's applause, that praise my words, like a keen sword, penetrate my heart. You always been a Hunzai, can only enjoy Hunzai handling. I like wearing an emperor's current raiment. This new dress, only I know to be disloyal, others look very smart. Very often, we go home and home, are hurrying for fear more than to be at home one day. Heart afraid of, afraid to be more at home one day, the loss of one day in the city will be more accident of survival. In fact, our hurry, nothing more than psychological comfort to their little nothing. I, too, so tomorrow I decided to return to C city.
2006 年 9 overcast Friday, 29 October
I did not go into. My uncle died together. Church widowed middle-aged uncle, only one daughter, recruited a door-law, the couple are working in Guangdong. He is in fact a lonesome old. Church uncle dying, just me and my father at his side. Die the moment, his eyes hanging drop of adore world of tears. Who want to dead, no matter how hard life. Alive there is hope! I heard uncle died together, staying in the village neighbors who are driven over. Everyone to help, the uncle's body carried to the cardinal room together, and then rushes to discuss the funeral began. This seems to be their own business like everyone enthusiastically published the outlooks. They just want a little comfort to the dead end. Quickly suggested a duct, is the countryside cattle uncle, uncle he was responsible for coordinating arrangements for the funeral hall. In our rural zones, something ruddy pearly matter, has such a Explorer. But the staff is really a problem. Basically, a middle-aged fatigue are not the countryside. The original person with a lot of our village, there are more than a hundred numbers, but now only a few dozen elderly and children at home, there are barely three or four can be considered middle-aged women. All others go to work. Large tracts of barren land, weeds in soaring. I am very worried for the Church uncle's funeral, because with the existing human village, even the coffin could not elevator up the mountain. Cattle uncle seems the responses, he planned to linger in the village of old people to their younger generation to call and ask them to go home. I also gave my brother a tel call chapel. Church brother said they would come back as fast.
2006 年 9 月 Saturday 30 somber
after another to someone back. These good people, always there when needed in front of you. I am a Tang Shu in a coal mine coal mining. He said that delay a day in lost revenue than one hundred dollars. But they did not reveal even a little bit of grumbles, in their view, the village dead people is a major event, do not earn more money, they must come back to help. Can come back almost all back, sad atmosphere in the village was filled, but inevitably mixed with some excitement. Talked a lot about the topic is money. And when someone comes to money, something to me, that I became a home in the big cities, my wife is in town, it will certainly have money. I am silence on the surface of the heart highly embarrassed, if they know my real life, which will in their hearts the image of me is a complete subversion. I suddenly horrified, afraid to bring their wonder spume burst. Then, along to their imagination to chart the life! Church uncle's remains buried in his lifetime to find a good one vegetable. Off the land in that moment, cousin screaming in pain, tears cross-flow. The most pro-people soon to be buried in the soil, from Tianrenyongge, there are many complex heart pain, in that moment wanton vent. I saw my father's eyes with tears, looked bleak, as if a lot of old. Father is old, almost 70 years old. I was suddenly filled with stress and solicitude, fear too early that day to come into my head. I was not ready. This day come sooner or later, but I never let my father and mother enjoy a day congratulating. I do not want to rue not leaving this.
Part Cana, actually lost a
2006 年 10 Wednesday, 4 October overcast
with mingled emotions, I went back to city C, proceed with my neighbors think of the Cousin yelling in pain lingering in my idea the situation. I strongly look forward to receiving presently the parents approximately, a family get together, good for the old pair enjoy their grandchildren. What is the greatest happiness in life? Parents watching their children slowly grow up, children saw their parents grow old, in the process, the family is always together. Always together. And my parents, far apart, whether they have two three-pain patients, who care for them? I was fraught with intense crime, I do not get together with parents and the substance root. I'll have to make money, for me, but also for their families. With impatience I look inward to the business around, looking for potential profit opportunities. And a partnership with Mao Zhuren because he and I will be talkative some relationship, he said I was an honest man. This is a excellent evaluation. A lot of intelligent people in this community, but we all like dealing with honest people. If we can not find a sense of security from the community, then you can find a aboveboard person. This is why a lot of smart people struggled to no advantage, and those who look with piglet can always enjoy the benefits. Based on this appraisal, I saw him later, always try to smile a digit of simple and honest. Mao Zhuren I began to discuss some of the prices, a wide kind of both, and sometimes even cement, dirt must be asked. In fact, a lot of things he knew the price, why ask me, he was simply trying to validation the price of water. Price is tired of alive a lot of things it is cried many, I must find out his name for the corresponding kind, in mandate to avoid fault. I can not go wrong, to my contact at the time, he is thought a determination of the people. I reported a lot of price, but to me he basically did not purchased.
2006 年 10 月 Tuesday, 10 cloudy
day every day that passes, the business and does not enhance. I'm just a tool of investigation, others, such as turnover, others crossed easily on my bridge. I have no other way to think, only the construction of more outlets, can expect to have something missing to me. I look inward to the fact that, when people became accustomed to my inquiry, I would highlight the importance of out. So, now I have to do is to adhere to. As long as I can stick to it, everything will be OK. Mao Zhuren called and asked if I cooked for decoration materials are not versed with. Familiar with - consist in ...k me, I know. Mao Zhuren sent me a account, said one of his friends to decorate a room, prepared to contract out. I was dumbfounded to get the account, what insulation, safeguarding, water, speedy, I never heard of these things. But I said I know, had to bite the bullet and go to the mart inquiry. A lot of things on the mart simply do not, prices are not out of consultation. I went to a professional decoration company, but could find, basically home correction company, this type of tooling business, the elementary is not familiar with. I finally found a do tooling, looked at the list, that did. I was very happy. I had the intellect is not to think there may be money, but for Mao Zhuren to explain itself. Now that said, we must glory, this is as a man due credit. This tooling company engaged in a price reported to me, intact, did not join a penny, I will be forwarded to the Mao Zhuren. I just proved to Mao Zhuren he come to me and yes, what I can get. This is typical of thankless, but I have to do it. Price after I reported to Mao Zhuren no further on this matter. Anyway, I am not engaged in renovation, that is, to me, I do not come.
2006 年 10 Friday, 13 June atmospheric
morning, Mao Zhuren called me and said his friend looked at my price, I felt that I could, let me talk to his friends about. Once again, I was dumbfounded. I only bite the bullet and go. Before going, I am catching a bit fitting knowledge, in fact, was recorded in several vocational terms, so that the other will not think I was too amateur. Mao Zhuren friend surnamed Liu, a large state-owned corporations in the logistics division as adviser. In fact, not the eight children's room decoration, repair and renovation of what is, looked at the scene, I think we should not be too complex. I said, I do not know what a professional, mechanic then brings me back to look at. So I came back to find that corporation, the scene described the situation to them. They go to the site to see, I discontinue, I had a good talk with them first into. They do not dry, before I must read the site promises, things stalemate there. Last resort, only when the villain. I individually find them a skilled company, called Chen Daming, promises good profit after forty-six open, he four I have 6, he agreed. Before going, he and I signed a similar accord instrument. Professional is vocational, Chen Daming looked at the scene of the old Liu eloquence. Looks excellent confidence in our old Liu, alleged that: and Chen Daming I pull out to accept private living, impossible to contract on benefit of their company. I only like old Liu said the fact, hoping to Building Materials Business Department to compact with him, do not sign the construction upkeep, sign into the purchase of materials, alternative look. Of course, I do not always tell the truth, and lied, for example, we do more such works, generally tens of thousands of dollars of business so we are all operating. Chen Daming also next to chime in, and casually gave some examples to substantiate. Old Liu is actually agreed. Oh, this is my Building Materials Business Department signed the first contract, but has nothing to do with the building materials.
2006 年 11 Friday, 10 overcast
contract signed, but in the construction process has encountered a lot of distress. Chen Daming work in the company, not just delay, only use work time to the site to the construction, while the Party of the relatively tight timetable and reminders, and made me very mortified. In addition, I found Chen Daming level remains at a purely technical level, his aptitude is poor, the theory and practice Debu so good. Throughout the construction we have very a few detours, the last one or the other please only people who barely get this thing. We expect this business will have had more than ten thousand dollars of profit, the final finish, we would have detriment of $ 4,000. Chen Daming earn admission does not recognize loss, this $ 4,000 loss I had to take a person down. More than four thousand dollars, almost where I do the bridge in Mao Zhuren all business profits, which look to become no more. I have heartache. Made me sad, because dragging the old Liu duration, not pass quality project, this matter to the Mao Zhuren old Liu said. Mao Zhuren call me swearword a pass, that I would boast, let him lose face in front of friends, would not mustld me to look after him. Loss of money, but also lost an momentous client, I can dream the mood. Several days, I have listless. Mao Zhuren will not believe me since I worked so hard to establish a large customer, because of my rapacity and ruined. This is greed I do? Sigh.
son of the third part, I hope you are strong (1)
2006 年 11 Monday, 13 December cloudy
I have returned to mother's home. But for me there, in fact, like a motel, I just go back to sleep only every day. Is not no love here, but, it is after all not mine. I have also tried to put it as me, but afterward failed to do. Stool resting on the east side of good or resting on the west side of good? I did not say. Only son, I am back here to inspire enthusiasm. Afternoon, I received a call from Zhou Yuan, said she Jiugong died, she and her parents go to funerals, let me pick up her son, opened the way parents look. Son in kindergarten on the middle shift, and before the PTA appointments, can not, I do not always quibble, by Zhou Yuan to go, or do it from the son's grandparents. I do not like to seem in public, do not like to arise in front of an acquaintance, not a low-key, but some embarrassed. The more people about getting along well, more like tightly wrapped themselves. I always think that any gathering of people who are open to Hunde Hao, parents will be the same. I admit that my mental is dark, but I get out. I always look inward to the day I can become a party clothed in the center, but every time I meet are huddled in the edge licking his wounds lost. I also tried a number of graceful performance, but for years stuck on life has shaped me into a humble role. So, this time parents, I still silent. Teacher recommended that parents converge on children's specialty exercising, and fired a drawing, English, abacus and other educate tutoring classes. To be honest, I do not support this kind of tutoring. Child, or let ecology take its growth is good, too much training, only Destructive Enthusiasm, in the end nothing. But it happens a lot of parents want their children to develop their own ideas, hoping to carve into their ideal child works perfect. So many parents in the teacher's discipline, the report gave the children a educate tutoring classes. Our downstairs a parent, that is my adjoin, the daughter of his expiration to report the three courses. I have not been reported. Kindergarten preceptor looked at me with curious eyes, beating around the woods and said: In my attitude, children in kindergarten, should learn the rules, learning life, honing the symbol, not as technical. Forgive me for all the tutoring the property of the technology. Today, we can instruct children a lot of technology, but these techniques you master it? Themselves are not proficient, how to educate boy? He can get after it? If not, is it a garbage of the child's stamina? He want? If children do not like, forcing children to learn, as a entire? So, I name the banner of mastermind development of children, shouting Except me, other parents or one or more doors, gave the children reported. I really do not see the meaning of registration, the kindergarten educator began to ask me directly: came over and said: I did not see the other parents reported all around over, twitter egg on my petition to his son, if that battle is not reported, as if I was the son of general abuse. A bad temper, even take a very love disaffected female parents, even in the next complained: I want to explain my reasons for not matriculate your children, but they too will be demolished so the teacher's station. Being embarrassed when I heard my neighbor murmured to the instructor, said: by the lack of understanding into compassion, even pity, kept saying the words of some enlighten me.
son of the third part, I wish you are muscular (2)
I would rather be reprehended everyone, not pity than hear some of the words. These are two different types of pain. The former is an equal against, which shows that you are a typical weak. Teachers began to smooth things over, said: . My son's little hand holding to go on the road, trudged but sad. Son do not know what is privation, he also small. Not over two years, so he is slightly larger, I know the comparisons. Dad doing the work of others, how much money, open the car, he brought in his heart and I will contrast something, then that is my disappointment, then to low self-esteem. Perhaps accordingly autistic. I need to do is as soon as possible so that kid understand that money is good, but sometimes they have to accept the reality of money. But for children, this is a mysterious topic. I asked his son: I was very despise their own idea - I'm too practical. Son thought, said: Ask, his son said: I have not been to the zoo with his son. Never. Because the flies down and out, change their mind preoccupied about the old situation, so they only see their own, think only of themselves, but ignored my dearest son. Or even go to a menagerie, but also became his wishes. In winter,Christian Louboutin Mary Janes, too dingy to be earlier, hiking on the road has some twilight, I decided to immediately take him to the menagerie. I can not wait. Sitting on the bus to the zoo, and affectionate with his son, but hate this car was very slow. To the zoo when it was dingy, box office people after work, me and my son had a large iron door cross the inside look. I pointed to a great steel gate in the night, with the son, where is the tiger, where the peacock, where is his preference giraffe. In fact, the C City fhardly ever long, I have not been to the zoo. Son hard to keep your eyes open, watching as my fingers, as if really seeing the same. Watching her look, I feel I was a liar. I just go to the zoo with his son in order to complete the task, and get a little psychological solace. In fact, his son and saw nothing. My son said: At night, his son slept nearby me especially luscious, and tender on the tip of the nostril slightly sweat. I use paper towels to erase him gently about agitated him. He coiled over and fell resting. The age of carefree, happy like the same flowers. I hope his son will not grow up, just like so many good, do not experience the hardships of life and social malign, not emulation, even without struggle. But he was eventually brought up the end, send him to resist the oppression of society. If he is strong, he will surmount the pressure, to obtain his rightful place; if he is weak, maybe, he will live like me useless. I do not want him reiterate my mistakes. I hope, I hope he is a strong hope that what he is good.
third part to earn every penny of their own content
2006 年 11 月 cloudy to sunny Thursday, 16
room upkeep this thing is a thump to me, I breathe a long time. My current situation does not grant me to make mistakes. I like a weak physical condition of patients, only the tonic, not a laxative. Also, I think I should modify viewpoint. I often have a sudden make a huge deal of looking, in fact, hope flourishes to immediately change their status quo. This is a perilous semaphore, I do not have a big trading found, room decoration is an obvious example. I tried to repress his eager to get wealthy idea, to situation itself as a character to earn living expenses so that they are satisfied to earn each cent. I figured, I actually only a month apportioned to mandatory spending 300 dollars on my head office rent and other expenses are soft. In other words, each day I addition to journal expenses, but also a 10 dollar profit, in order to survive. So I gave've set a goal to earn 20 dollars a day. Including transport prices 5 dollars, quickly food prices 3 dollars, 2 dollars of tobacco money, and the remaining 10 dollars is my profit. With this goal, some of the things that seem simple. I frankly with the consumer, said: I can go and you talk about the price. In short, I just want to work with you, let your losses and you give me a little flee charges, the same as rent a porter, while the porter did not know how much I have in this regard, I will help you control the product quality, porters can not do that. Now people are careful of the salesman, for alarm of being taken in, but for the porter, not so wary of. Beginning, I really must put the customer as a porter. Slowly, they feel after I use it more easily, call me direct distribution, and sometimes prices do not ask, I say what the price is the price. Of course, my sales are some small things, a little on the measure I can not do something, because I have no money advances. But this does not matter, my goal already set very cheap, at the peak of I can reach the goals on it. If I run into a customer looking to buy someone, just the value of profits is over my target, I felt that day academic a lot, very satisfied, very happy. Due to capacity limitations for the business can not do, I still dedicated to help customers solve whatever problem I have, so that customers feel I was really their cause. Today, a customer call me, let me help him buy a 100 kg water blocking material, and I really earned 300 dollars. One day a month of profits earned, I just pleased to bad, I called immediately to the Zhou Yuan, reported the news to her. Expect the greater the disappointment, the goals were lower, then the happiness will be some more. Happiness is contagious, not only infect others, but can infect themselves. Work in a happy mood, the feeling will be liking some of the things.
The third part of the bottlenecks encountered
funds (1)
2007 年 1 cloudy Friday,Christian Louboutin Boots, 5 October
liquidity is the biggest problem. Many customers have asked me first shipment to the site, and then pay to me. Although sometimes a good stock to the site on disbursement to me, but for assorted reasons, do not be fulfilled, then it means that I triumphed a few days to get back my money in advance. This case more than one, I do not have the drawbacks of capital out what to highlight. I do everything possible, and my good narratives with upwards suppliers, when nothing flew on to the suppliers where to sit, to exchange, in order to win supplier's account. In my efforts, there are a few suppliers are willing to goods on credit to me, so I can merely working over. However, supplier confidence in me is very crisp, I carefully preserve my reputation. One time, I promised to give a supplier disbursement time is up, but no money to pay him, so he borrowed 200 dollars to find Xiaoyu, was to encounter in the past. Slowly, I approached among the supplier and this understanding: I usually just getting goods to them to fight a single storage on the line, twice a month end models. To keep all of the suppliers have also come to my guitar models, I deliberately put suppliers into two groups: a group of 8 and 25, Results segment, another group of 12 and 29 guitar models. This is called mincing. I work day and night, our sales increased quickly. This month, our monthly bargains volume has reached approximately five million. The obstruction of capital once again perceptible. Originally, I put my supplier is divided into two groups, every end section of the time is not the same, I think this can be effected consistently with a number of suppliers money for working capital goals. But the reality is no one so lightly, for instance, sometimes in order to make a business handle, I had promised to the customer to delay payout requirements; In adding, not all suppliers are willing to goods on credit to me. Sometimes, I will use the cash to buy materials, and credit to the customer. As a result, my sales of larger, the more claim for capital. Several times, holding my storage supplier came to me one paragraph expression, but I have no money to pay them. Supplier trust in me an already fragile, and once this happens, it can no longer nay goods on credit to me.
2007 年 1 月 Wednesday 10 overcast
midday, seven or eight suppliers squeeze it in our small office, twitter arguing ask me for money. I really have the money, collect up the body up and down less than 20 dollars. Brother had no money, I humbly with my supplier who explain, I hope they grace a few days, once the money arrived, I personally sent them. There is a supplier of single-fed to a storage, said only 80 dollars, last time not to pay him, this may certainly have to pay. I said next to knot together, today is indeed money. Man on bombard, said: Some people say I am a liar, and then other people trying to remember I had all the wrong places, and really thought I was a liar, what would stir up. A rapid temper, in order to assure themselves opposition losses, began to look at my office, there are no valuables. Brother is to help people repair the computer, the office has three computers for repairs, twinkling of an eye, these computers was holding his shirt. Some people I might owe him only two or three hundred dollars, and do not hesitate to put the computer taken away; some suppliers the money I owe him more promising to get nothing. Very chaotic scene, I try to keep a clear head, remember who took my stuff. His brother called the police, and other police arrived, the office has been rummaged, and the repose, those who have not received the money, they haunt me and prop. Police learned about the incident, said it was economy squabbles, not any of anybody major trouble. Having left. I gave the rest of the money of people who declared that, give me three days, I had to cobble together the money to bring them over.
The third part of the bottlenecks encountered
funds (2)
they have no alternative, we can not for this little money, and beat me, right? So they still get money. Supplier is gone, my brother and I sat in the office, relatively silent. Brother of the customer's computer is now being taken away, how can I do? I believe that our society is mostly good people, by the time I promptly put the money back to them, they will return to our computer. We figured, we should have paid their money, was twenty thousand dollars. I give customers a tel call, in only two days to recover the money more than ten thousand dollars, there is still more than ten thousand. I carefully thought can take place, does not seem to. A few years antecedent my friends and almost slit off contacts, suddenly find they lend money is unrealistic, not to mention that I also thought the hospital when they lend money to find. Brother of those friends? Ever since I was in hospital he went to lend money, he came to an upright fame, not good to borrow. Business dealings on a friend is not want to. I suddenly thought of borrowing money. My mother's friends, a matron surname Jiang, Ping An Insurance is to sell the woman, she was someone else out, loan sharking, I sometimes listen to my mommy talked about. Think of usury, I was a bit Ji Ling, as if back to the old society. I gave the surname Jiang woman called and said recent business a little tight on funds, would like to ask her to help take a little interest-bearing money. She asked me how many, I said twenty thousand. Surname Jiang woman flatly refused, she does not anxiety me. Yes, ah, a block of premium even three thousand people who we have not, to borrow twenty thousand, who would believe? I would ask my mama to a woman talk about the surname Jiang, but eventually gave up the idea.
2007 年 1 月 cloudy on Saturday, 13
morning, I let my brother to the incipient assignation, where a few customers get the money, I went to my creditors who go there to talk almost entities. I have to take back to his brother's computer, not because of my brother's entities that affect the business. Think almost it, ascertain someone to help repair your calculator, the results of the computer was accustom to offset the debt, this material came to his brother also many. I put the creditors are divided into two groups, a group is took my computer, variant group is nothing holding the. I do not must get things off the chart state creditors within three days to give money to them, it now appears 3 days is not likely anymore. I visited a 1, unravel the situation to them and query them repeatedly a few days elegance. I said: I diagramed, my brother went back to the money ample to redeem the computer, but also a little accessory money, you tin pay part of them. In truth, this money will not do you look in them, they are just scared of being fooled. I understand that I need to do is to disperse their concerns. Other brother money back, I went to another group of creditors. I told them that owe them money, but it is because of cash flow to, let them, and now my money back, hope they give me the computer. Two gave us the computer, for well as a prevaricate, do not give. He said he also owe money, someone another take the computer to be bonded, and now in the hands of others. I training, I owe him more than nine hundred greenbacks of the buy price, and that the worth of a computer at least 2000 greenbacks, right? Heart to do this business, I truly speechless. Anyhow, I have worked with them several times, ye corner away people would not acknowledge it? No matter what I Haoshuodaishuo, this is a prevaricate Ah. I saw it, this is out of bullying. He knew I was a small broker, just like the creek of little fish can not furnish to turn waves, deliberately making asset tough for me, she spoke out on the smell of explosive. Brother said that he hoped they put the computer back to us, or to the time we do not better. No one could hear this is a hard case. The house came out two people, said: Brother slipped and fell to the floor. Teng rage in my center what it up, picked up a mallet afterward to, front man to move his brother's brain is a rod. The male in the hand a alarm stop, just hear to In recent years, because of the poor, I feel oppressed everywhere, always goes wrong, everything was an insult. All grievances, I use this mallet to be loosened. His brother was small, was a man on the ground, I steer elapse, hit open the man to pluck his brother from the floor up. Brothers truly fight, ah, we took a fellow two brothers, meantime swatting. More and more people mob, and the police swiftly rushed to the scene. We were taken to police station are taking memorandum, that the store people have been rushed to a hospital. Younger brother also went to the hospital, perplexity, he was a punch in the face, from a blood sack. Police Station is a area of appeasement, the police want to trivialize, nothing. Record that night, we go family, and afterward to the police station several times to interfere, the result is the computer back to me, and I paid off the other side of the purchase price, the two sides of the injured one person. Some of the other injuries, arm fractures, broken with some of the other merchandise we supply him a absolute of 8000 greenbacks. A fight, lost 8000 dollars, my heart hurts,Christian Louboutin Slingbacks, but do little more than a man's self-confidence. Although some people commonly increased help, when the hands turn, most of the turtle.
the end of the third part of the income
2007 年 1 Monday, 29 cloudy
brother's computer repair business is getting done well, make ends meet monthly, basically I helped him in North America. The starting of the twelfth lunar month, my brother said: I know his heart has always been a node. I am just sick in the hospital soon, and my brother made a split decision, but that time is my most difficult time. Although I understand his decision, but he seemed guilt. After the disjunction, he and I never said this matter, as had happened the same. Brother finally agreed to a partnership proposition, but he said something to let me break. He said: I smiled and said: each other a little selfishness. I still have half of the shares given to his brother, his brother is responsible for contacting the upstream business, I was responsible for sales. Contact the upstream business is not an effortless thing. What we do is too complicated, and at all times the customer needs, sold everything, this is actually a test of his brother. Once a customer ask me fhardly evermething, he was able to find the fastest time to put things back. No catalogue, simply fictitious. Fortunately, my brother and I so long for some of the doorway is very clear. A brother in the back advocate, I would condense on running the business to the appearance. We are really running the business run, with the thighs; but not really run, is walking, walking. Usually I would probably place a bus, then walk. To have their business where possible, stopped to ask. This is actually nothing different with a mendicant. Beggar is aboveboard apologizing, but we just threw a wrap of doing business, in pith, no different.
2007 年 2 月 6 日 Tuesday, the twelfth lunar month nineteen clear
had gone to the end of the year, I began to inventory this year's proceeds. Some receivables not collected, there are two customers instantly disappeared. After subtracting all of the payables, cash on hand I have over twelve thousand yuan. Na Zhaoqian hands, heart weird smells. Over the past year, through rain and air to go, no holidays of the points, not to work the points, always wary, always Peizhexiaolian, nothing more than a few for this paper only. Is a few canvases of paper can decide a person's quality of life, but also determines a person's status and identity. How many people desperate for money, how many people fell on the way to make money. Money, money, life is interlocked. However, this money can do what? Can not buy a house, but can not support the old. To be unlucky, then it is possible to put a little sick to spend a little money to neat. So my mind is not stable. But anyway, compared to the past, we progress. I intend to find a canteen with his brother and a good repast, be group years. Has been a long time without serious eating. Previously, if we want to dine out, usually for luncheon, or eating noodles at the roadside canteen. This time, we ordered four dishes and one soup, but also a decanter of Luzhou, fifty a few dollars of the kind. We eat and, while to discuss our future. My brother said: I carefully examined, our materials management department, is actually a moving body. We earn no more than the mansion materials market and the use of transmission costs between the elements. In fact, our living space is very finite. I think we have to nail an industry. First to enter this manufacture, then think of ways to acquire a fixed foothold, slowly developing. Finally, in this industry has its own position. I gave my brother a lot of renowned listed companies, are in an industry to focus on a product, then slowly grow. Engaged in production there, there are also engaged in distribution. And we are now, East West, a pummel stick, others to sell to Han Han, not tired all day long, but can only maintain a livelihood. In fact, we can not sustain their livelihood. The most basic living things - a house, we have it? Brother knows this, but hard-pressed to find an exact eligible for our industry. No matter what the industry needs ample capital, and we do not. His brother, who cited a number of relatively low cost of portal of the industry, I think inappropriate. A living two or three hours, we did not discuss the results come.
2007 年 2 月 15 日 twelfth lunar month 28 Thursday Cloudy
New Year, my brother did not return home, he did not go back on the grounds that compact the road during the Spring Festival, and the fee is expensive. But I understand this is nothing but excuse. Brother almost 28 years old, no girlfriend. He did not go home because it is their neighbors to avoid answering. In our home, 28-year-old is already a very youth age. To this age, not married, we will help anxious, turn to ask, to help turn ideas, as if it has transform all things. The mother will continue to urge you to help introduce the introduction, she is very anxious about his youngest son can not find the girlfriend. Brother have been well aware of this situation, the last Chinese New Year to come home, has underwent a kind of He said then: This year, when his brother had handed over a girlfriend, but only two months to crash the contacts. Specific reasons for his younger brother did not tell me that I only memorize that time my brother principally dejected, listless all day. Later,Christian Louboutin UK, his brother has been trying to re-pay one, but has not been fitting. Once, my brother in the office like break off anger, said he did not want this life to find a girlfriend. He said the woman now a very real one, exchanges two days to ask you how many money a month, there is no house, there is no car. In my eyes, my brother is worthy of a woman entrusted person, honest, work hard, willing to persevere difficulty. These are all peerless quality of Chinese men, whatever, many women can not see these qualities, they only see money. In fact, do not get married so what? So in the hereafter money, not a woman afraid to come? But, parents need to give an account of his brother, to the traditional conception of an explanation. After all, a girl, once married, men and when the marriage. He could not explain when the only way to escape only.
third part of the thing at home, or comfortable with better (1)
2007 年 2 月 17 日 clear on Saturday, New Year's Eve
Today is New Year's Eve night, I went back to the mother's home. Before returning home, I have done some struggle. I hesitated, not like last year, to find an plea to escape from the anniversary kin assembly. But in the end, I chose to face. First, I am better than some of last year Hunde Hao, and my heart with a little self-confidence; Also, I think a lot of things, cozy with better than to flee. Like a long face, pockmarked man, he can select to cover his face with a fabric, but could not stop the talk of others: he had been covering his face, because he long has pockmarked. What comes next is a wide range of discussions, more fierce, eventually everybody will be afraid met with the person. My new situation, as long there is a pockmarked face who want to try to cover his face. Rather than let others talk privately, as frankly acknowledged that she really getting by well. To show them my real life, try to numb some of the routine nice. Reunion banquet at night when the dad specifically asked loudly: go. Zhou Yuan said: I found under the mattress noiselessly last year's fireworks, somewhat tide, but look no solemn problem. I took his son came downstairs, smoke point, silently praying: If they can unload fireworks, then I must be very successful in 2007. I will stretch smoke fuse, a explode of smoke emitted, My heart explode of joy, back, elated to see his son over his ears dance. Not distant away, Zhou Yuan is clutching his ears, his face smile. I thought moving a bit, the fireworks are being handed Zhou Yuan. She hesitated to take over, his teeth clenched, eyes squint to see to the side, heard the fireworks exploding behind hitting a charcoal-like as speedily dropped, laughing and son embrace. Seems to have been a long time no see Zhou Yuan so elated, I was a little acid. Because look at Chinese New Year party, Zhou Yuan activity for a while afterward the home. My son and I amused indiscriminately downstairs, all the climate tastes of sulfur and NOx. Son in my tuning and encouragement, and finally challenged to boldly put fireworks up. Each put a ring, he should jump about excitedly applause. Fireworks and firecrackers rapidly put over his son enough, we have to put cried, I promise to go morrow to buy him some, he finally admitted to give up. The lustful joy, had last year, he should have, because my flee, dragged this year. Home, the television is played with dark clouds and the loud, parents, and Zhou Yuan always burst into mirth. I stood quietly peruse a while, periodically laughed few times, smile, some blank heart. Before going to slumber, I found his son's piggy bank, stuffed inside a 100 dollars. My son said: The first is the 2003 Spring Festival.
2007 年 2 月 Sunday, 18 clear
first day. The street is not busy, many people chose to lair in the home. I surprise if my mind the reason, or was is the way I feel less and less busy Chinese New Year, and the absence of a festive atmosphere. Our motorcar came Zhou Yuan's two father family, the house has gathered a lot of people saw us come in, everyone welcomed them warmly. For me, we are greeted this way: it, I enjoyed. Living chamber sofa is not enough to sit, Zhou Yuan two father would find some short-lived plastic stool, we make do with sitting down.
third part of the thing at home, comfortable with or better (2)
into the recalled correlate, the topic a lot, usually by asking someone flies Zeyang about. Everyone seems life is good. I carried my son sitting in a corner, afraid digressed to me. I want to be ignored. This worried a lot more than we were two people who talk to fascinate. A name high, Zhou Yuantang sister's husband. Engaged in construction, and forties, divorced, said a lot of money. He half a master, his father Zhou Yuan is the father of two. A surname, Sun, Zhou Yuan cousin's husband. He opened a hardware company, forties, also divorced, said to be very rich. Because of their age than I am, my brother and Sun Ge high proportion. Previously, Zhou Yuan, and I usually get jump out at anger when the two men to run to me and said her sister her sister are married and well, only she Bitter, marry me this useless man. I laughed and said: ? In fact, this woman is not limited to, any of us are, if it were not for sensitive, but also in other areas. About the outcome, so human nature. High and Sun are talking about their cars. High drive a Audi, said he had arranged to buy a BMW, too provocative, some of Audi's subtle. Sun to open the Camry, he said he bought the car did not need to decorate the facade, the high is doing the project, should reflect the strength of the cars bought. Implying that he was buying it, is affordable. We have been the topic of the two of them attract. The listener which, I think many people like me, wish I could have one day car. Topic then shifted to the body, the focus turned to the elderly. This is a topic amid the elderly, while young duplicity to salutations, and some excuse to the toilet, some tried to migrate to their topic of concern. In addition to interest young people, money, a few really attention about the elderly? Dinner, I sat in misery and a table of high and Sun. Originally, I hope her child and the old people's table, but the dead lift in the past has been high. My son also brought in the past, I hope they see my son to concentrate on attention rather than to disturb me. Detestable is the little guy just sat with me a few minutes, went to his mother on where to go. Drink, a drunk unhappy solution. Wet bar atmosphere but it is still quite agreeable, and we toast each other, said some Alcohol to intoxicated at, that she began to active up. People are combative, wine on the table is also true, are coerced to find a variety of reasons some of the other nectar, to show their tactical victory. Began to drink less when I try to do less, but later they gradually open up, control his mother, afraid ah. Sun is still high and the center of the table. Drink later, all aimed fire on high. Sun to high toast, Sun said: pull a long time, the two together dry cup. He Jiandajiadu to target the high natural quit, they say everyone drink drink, drink much do. I do not want to drink, and wanted an excuse to depart, but was pulled Sun. He said: was how the wind blows, the guests are not satisfied with fear, at any time adjust the atmosphere of the wine on the table. tired, you know? Other people do not drink on the table to retreat the initiative out, the rest of our four man tables, in addition to high, and Sun, there is a distant cousin, Zhou Yuan, surnamed Luo. We have failed to reach a unity on how to drink. High amount of liquor is good, requiring everyone else to drink; Sun quit, tension free. I suggested that: humble. I am surprised that we actually are very happy. High first in power, full circle, winning only the high Sun, drink two glasses. Next Sun Hence, it is to drink two glasses. Mora-line order, a warm atmosphere. Other people do not drink came around us and see our mora drink. See who wins or loses, they coax the sound in the next booing. Nazhen I just out of school, work in factories, leisure and workers when they drink mora, mora quite old basis, so high and I suspect they get down to boxing, winning a great many the time. High terrible vanquish, has a big tongue to speak, spirits are very high. He Zhou Yuan's two father said: lost punch. Really good wine, alcohol, full-bodied, with a little sticky. Glass seems to drink it, and after a while child, stick in the cup wall of wine will slowly accumulate to the base of the cup. Even the best can not drink alcohol, intoxicating alcohol, at the end of the day. A bottle of wine drinking, drunkenness has been completed is high, speaking haltingly, and again said: Maqi customers, and said although he earned two money, but long-term loading grandson in front of customers, is the general commanders, but also at any time Peizhexiaolian. Later, and perhaps touched the heart of pain, he even began to wail in public, a nose a cut, it is really sad. People panic, quickly washed her face to help him, help him to bed rest. People, ah, not easy to be looking in the meantime, also was looking down.
Part no friends, it means that no group (1)
2007 年 2 Monday, 19 clear
so passed on the first day, I attended a happy and peaceful gatherings. Today, I had an excuse, to leave the house to his brother there, to see how well he had the Spring Festival. Brother sitting there text messaging, SMS voice sounded at intervals. I also took out his mobile, I suddenly felt very lost. The Spring Festival, in addition to all, and Zhao Xiaoyu, not a friend sent me SMS New Year wishes. And Zhao Xiaoyu are and can only be regarded as new friends. My old friends, have forgotten me. I suddenly felt really need a friend, which is a kind of spiritual needs. A year ago, I am not such a demand. Even have enough to eat, dare to have spiritual needs? Nonsense. I turned the phone's address book, a familiar name of a jump out. Each name can bring a familiar scene, the scene seems to be in sight, but people have been rusty. Thought, I decided to send a message to Peng. Zhang Peng was my junior high school alumnus, is now a C City Council's Deputy Director. At that time our school has four classes a year, Peng and I did not in the same level, but because of family conditions and other aspects are similar, they like to play, so the relationship has been very good. After graduating from junior high school, Peng examination, a teacher, his future teachers. But teachers are not ideal for Peng, his teacher just out of the test as a means of harvest gate. However, Peng is still became a teacher, teacher after graduation, he was assigned to one of our small village in the township. His identity has not farmers, but farmers are still living in the stack. The small village of only two public teachers, Peng certainly became a vice chancellor. The following year he became chancellor, another two years, and transferred to the center of the school when the Vice President. Peng's life when the Great Leap Forward began in the center of the school's vice principal. Once, a county town which led to the inspection, the way to the center of the school to see the look, Peng found this talent. Peng is a aptitude that is because the mastery felt Peng younger, more importantly, Peng to drink. One year, Peng and I have another drink with a friend, he won two of us did not drink. According to his own say, a pound he would not drink liquor drunk. Thus, Zhang Peng was transferred to the County Board of Education to do a one clerk. Future development path I did not pay particular consideration, he is said inside for a few in the county unit until transferred to C city. Pheasant into a golden phoenix. I still do not feel any particular Peng conspicuous ability. Eloquence it? He has some stammering to speak it. But he is Hunde Hao, smaller than a few months I have been a Deputy Commissioner. Had a few run collateral to the alley, elsewhere inadvertently opened a gap, once opened, the gap is growing. Peng them out of that group of normal students, only a few people in the education. Most of the other into the body, mixed with a one-official post. We always walk in the labyrinth, no one to give direction, all depends on your own to make their luck. Occasionally, someone will give you means a road, and found not the case children. Perhaps that is the fate of it. But I do not think so, because destiny never gave us such opportunities. When I first came to city C, Peng still counties; I went to city C in the second year, he transferred will come up. Had just arrived, we did a few friends in C City. On the weekends, often crowded in a bed, not in my rental housing, is in his quarters. We are good friends. At that time we have no girlfriend, simple and happy life. Later, several villagers have transferred to the city C, then the circle too big. But basically, I and Zhang Peng was the center of this circle. I rented the room, it becomes our union. We are young people, to talk about all-inclusive. But money and women, old and fresh is always the topic. Or, gathered to play cards. Landlords, is what I learned at that time. Their fiscal situation when I can, more than a few revenues Peng them is higher, they Bianzhaofaer win my money. Sometimes, even out of the lie.
Part no friends, it means that no team (2)
I never care about, I had the feelings of friends more than anything else. Go out to eat, always remedy people greeted me. So I would really pay the bill pocket. My money is all in the arrangement, but I am enjoying this state. Zhongxingpengyue is a narcissism,Christian Louboutin Sandals, and the stars feel the same. I admit I am vain, my narcissism is used to cover up inferiority complex. I am a working person, and Peng them, either in government or in large state-owned enterprises, together, in addition to talking about money and women, is their future. They seem to have a good future, at least they can look forward to. They can look forward to the future, when a Secretary, or in the future as a state-owned enterprises, general manager, I look forward to what? They can see the future direction, and not salty not sallow in lined up, patiently waiting for opportunities to come. Even if there is no chance of promotion, they do not worry hunger, anyway, possessor countries. I do not know what the future looks like, but destined not smooth. You are now a extremely paid, perhaps tomorrow you jobless at home. This is called white-collar workers, dressed with, muddled with, but also with low self-esteem. Therefore, and Peng them together, deep down I was lesser. Because of low self-esteem, money was generous, to spend money on face. Later, Peng bought a house in the unit fund-raising, almost has a few other friends to enjoy this treatment. She lay between me and them too few. People have a house, do you have? You still early to city C than others do. Friends, is the need to head to. Others in constant progress, constantly improving, but you still the same, even as before. You see friends, need to look up before they see. When you see friends need to look up, you think he was your friend? Up, you will have another friend said: so and so is my friend. This is a pride, but also a vanity. Later, Peng and I will contact them gradually less. Peng several times about me, I have Bierbuxian, ultimately, will no longer contact. In preparation for Peng send text messages, I hesitated, afraid that he thinks I want to curry like with him. But yesterday, and Zhou Yuan meet their relatives once and for all of that, I think a lot when I was much ado about nothing. My heart think so, others not necessarily think so. Moreover, through this period of reflection, I think I need to restore those old friends and contacts. This society, no friends, it means you do not have team. A team of people is not achieved anything of. So, even now they are considered to be collusion, no big deal, who does not curry like with the world? When you are proud to say that you and so is a friend, it already curry favor with the. So, I pressed the send clasp, my blessing for Peng sent out. Peng did not return messages, I expected, but I was dissatisfied. However, I have decided to restore contact with these old friends had. This is not just spiritual needs, and, if I really want to die like a dog mixed with a person, I can not avoid them. Down and I can not change avoid the status quo, so, it might as well take the initiative to contact them, perhaps they can give me a little bit to help it.
2007 年 2 月 25 Sunday clear
Today is the eighth daytime the premier month, we began apt work. My brother and I sat in the bureau, planning the 2007 target. I said: some, merely you immediately have no money to purchase a restroom. My sibling said: narrow surround, it becomes a frog. I see. Paused, I said: I accidentally alienate some, and some accidentally alienate me. In short, virtually no contacted. However, based ashore a human in the community, without friends. A person's knowledge namely forever limited, and a few friends to help staff, perception would be additional. Take me now, I have the 2007 no access how to obtain a specific motif. Last annual, the road you work? Last year's strategy namely to sell people what to what, so we have to know the consequences of always the needs of our buyers and do everything the same and customers should at least understand, otherwise customers may no believe you. Last year's train is to make the world entire ambition to do affair. This is apparently unrealistic. This annual we must alteration strategy, alternatively were worn out, not paying the money to be earned. Of lesson, there are specific strategies before, but favor last year, ant-like efforts to acquire a tiny morsel. Otherwise, ambition return to the dilemma in 2005. But we must have a sense of change strategy, or the terminal sequel must be bad. What is this strategy? Last year, the team with his sibling, while we have browsed, there is no prospect of the two. So, I consider our experience is not enough, but also broaden their horizons. To broaden their horizons, they have to reserve learning, to make friends. Moreover, many friends, the community will have a deeper understanding. Now people have a misinterpreting, that the network will be able to understand all of society, erroneous. Community to understand by what? Not a web, not a document, not the TV and weekly medium, but friends. A team of friends is a circle, a circle is a small community, via the circle to see the larger society, tend to see more real. Of course this is rubbish, nothing to do with my status. I resolved to restore those age friends and my relationship, not the other, right while the morale absences it.