[One]
2007 in the summer I will be a wine red hair re-dyed back to black, wearing black-rimmed glasses, bangs hanging down blocking the eyes, hidden a denial of the position.
My ears There are 16 pierced ears, small stud earrings set with 16 sparkling. I wear a string of prayer beads on his left wrist, always talking about the Buddha. I have an ankle tattoo, black font is your last name.
week, the mark, I am a man all the way to go, take care, afraid to lose.
I never seem to be properly called your name, weekly evening morning, starting from the first met, it words are the reason of fear in my heart. do you know the story, Marco Polo and Genghis Khan, when talking about the world, Genghis Khan asked him, why you never say it in your hometown of Venice. Marco Polo said with a smile, I am afraid I said after coming out of Venice, it was not my.
I was feeling so shy, so the approaching feeling Qingqie, so the behaved in a hesitant.
I'm afraid I once say, you will no longer be my own secret. I am frightened to lose the people's eyes to its original color and meaning.
Juanjie I'm afraid many people will bother it, it will destroy it.
so I am trying to write our stories down, pressing it in a drawer in the corner, let it go on forever so dusty, so that even if the end of life. flesh die, this story, or am I a person's story.
[two]
2003 when I was 16 years, into the high one, then I do not know you, all the tears and the scars are still not on stage, I do not know what kind of broke our hearts feel.
midterm happens then bad luck when I was in the high term of the classroom, more bad luck is that I sit in your desk. your desk arrogant stuck on you and your girlfriend ID, her bright eyes white teeth smile, smile on your face is not deep, but with deep cynicism and evil, between facial features are unconventional and rebellious.
I stared at your picture look, do not know why suddenly red face.
you really look good, really really good. I do not know how to describe you, normally those adjectives do not seem to say that your beauty, I just suddenly thought of a word, see Yang Guo a lifelong mistake. about you, I also heard some bad schools fearsome youth, all the teachers mentioned You have a headache, Yet still there is a powerful father, so even if you go to school on a week-day classes can not do nothing for you.
I rushed to finish the papers, got up to go to an assignment When a bit wrong, looked down, my pants do not know how the case was a large pile of sticky chewing gum, I was shocked,
Monster Headphones, unconscious hand pull, which under a worse plight, which makes the whole pants are everywhere, seeing these pants give completely destroyed, and I almost fell off angry tears.
readily open your drawer having a bit of something to use, but to see you leave note saying a word, the taste of chewing gum please? Qianbian beside a smiling face painted, and I began to realize that you are deliberately sitting on your seat the whole person. I can only sigh, pants remains of a gift you gave me to pay the paper.
the way, I also retaliatory you and your girlfriend put into the avatar to tear down the wallet, Zhou morning twilight, do not blame me itchy, I know your girlfriend has gone abroad, every day you can only miss her picture in front, but who told you soiled my favorite pair of pants do.
you heartless, I do not justice.
I did not think you actually found a picture of it for our class, you call me out loud at the door when the whole class look like the same shot dozens of bulbs in my face, and I see everyone's faces are full of curiosity, who do not understand how I always behave like you who would like something to do.
I shuffled nervously into the palm of your time are sweating, the first time in years that I remember when disturbed, there is little expectation carries with ambivalence.
you looked at me for a long time, I promise to use your innocent eyes visits, none of us speak, the wind has been cool in October, and my hair's a mess by the wind, you suddenly smiled, you ask me, you're Lin Zhuoyi? I nodded, then asked you, that chewing gum is you enjoy it? I was nodding, your smile deeper, get a clean yet? I shook my head, how can not get rid, you are to lose my money? I did not think of how, seemingly normal sentence would be make you laugh so long, I look in your eye brow is filled with joy, as if I said the funniest joke of a world, you play the hand to my forehead, Lin Zhuoyi, I never know what is meant lost . In addition, you can actually put into the refrigerator for a few hours of pants, such as chewing gum can be frozen for a very easy get down.
me stupid Huhu's looked at me deeply, did not say nothing left. I was just another big relief when you turn around, said, that picture ...... you take it to be a memorial.
Really, I was not pleasing to the eye to see you, ah, do you think you are the star, but also be a memorial.
[three]
could not even see why the day When you fight, I will stop and look, I have always been like that scene is to take the attitude of avoiding it, I do not know why when you say that was attacked from behind, I will not hesitate to go for the rush You block a beer bottle that, when the birds scattered group of people to do when you hold me like as if I am going to Sashourenhuan shouting themselves hoarse, Lin Zhuoyi, you do not scare me.
but if I push you hard like a pile of cotton in the push does not take a little effort, I would like to ask you not screaming so badly, but the words not to say it felt a warm current from the forehead and upper drums down, you hand over my wound,
Beats Headphones, I feel you are shaking the whole person, and you in my ear that you'll be fine, I promise.
you with a few people to give me the time to apologize to my head still bandaged like a mummy, covered in bruises I looked confused one of their humble to give me an apology, and you look in the trace clear cold and sharp, they are gone then I ask you, they beaten? You light a cigarette to smoke, and white Marlboro, your back to me, I do not see your face, but your voice has unusual cold, you say, be the light hit them, I wanted to kill them.
you turned around to look like a child, you say, come, beauty, wronged you, I share your point of sacrificing points lower it. his mouth on the side of your arms to drag me. At the time much higher than I do, anyway, just my ear against your chest to hear you heart beating, I felt my face has Huoshaohuoliao, your chin knock on my head, I smelled a faint fragrance on your body, you thoughtfully said, Why did you ..... . if not finished, I rush to answer, and I do not know ah.
I really do not know why I'll keep my Qudang, but if the clock back, I think even if it is a bullets, and I still still desperate rush, and that the strength of strong and steadfast, not sure what I said.
long, long time before I want to know the name of that power, called Love.
but then you simply call it impulse, you hold me that this will not be so impulsive. I should be silly you do not know how to defend themselves, the morning twilight, how do you will know how much that moment I had the courage to lie to deceive the family and later to the origins of this wound, how to see us embrace the teacher in the corridor on the interpretation of our relationship.
in the teacher's office, class with a Nuqibuzheng Sorrow looked at me, I looked at her stubborn, and I said we really just friends. She said that if this is true, then why should embrace it. Everybody in the office staring at me, I was startled overwhelmed, do not know how to speak.
long while, I walked with heavy steps out of the office, you in the classroom door waiting for me to see you, I try to squeeze a smile, you took my hand and left without a word, I do not ask, quietly follow you along the way, you took me to a bar. In the afternoon when the bar no one, the waiter placed an old song, Faye Wong , her ethereal voice, singing a hundred thousand turn back:
want to go with you forever At least such a world
no real
to depend on you to do what you love in life
last angel
if you wake up with Shihai Dependence
you allow us to bow my head to drink Jieke Dan Nigeria, I drank Midazolam, you say this is not the wine is sparkling water, then why do I have the urge to do a cry. You hold my hand called also clear, that side of the Atlantic has been in the girl, that has a moving smile girl, you asked me why I betray you.
sudden my head hurts, I think some things may indeed I misunderstood. the sun is shining outside, I went to sell the place to wear earrings pierced ears, pierced ears, I wear a 16, even the screen did not let go of cochlear ear, looks like a scarred heart. The next day you come to me, look at me like swollen like a Pig Ears curious to ask the reason, you are drunk you do not remember what happened after.
I smiled, said nothing.
[four]
rumors about me Everyone in school has become the talk of gossip, but also a friend to ask me how and what you are, I stared at them, look innocent than anyone else. I'm not loaded, the morning twilight, I would like to know whether we What is the relationship, we are from ambiguous so close, but so far away from love.
you always call me a little beauty, or Lin Zhuoyi, but I hear it clear to you when making a call to the Soviet Union also called her dear.
dear, intimate love, I leave that title seems to have millions of light years away.
you're still good to me, when I called April Fool that I was lying to you hit by a car lying in the hospital, you hang up the hospital came edgy, but I see the laugh, I bounced in front of you saying, Zhou twilight morning, April Fools. The thought you would extend my middle finger playing forehead, but you just face livid at me, silent.
I am afraid you do not know how terrible the way you are silent, as if suddenly overcast dark clear sky, and all moment faded to gray in color.
I went to shake your arms, you force the throw off me. I'm miserable now behind you and you do not talk to me tell you, I do not know that you are how, just a joke, do you really want to see you I lay in the emergency room. do not know how long, you finally come around to see me, my face was pale, sweating all at risk of body hair wet ride in the forehead, the whole is like a broken kite.
I scared you are, you anxiously asked me if I was not feeling well, but I speak of that moment in your beaming smile, you do not angry like. you forget me, eyes flashing something, as bright as Venus.
a crowded street, the vehicle stream, the quiet of the night sky neon scratch We have a noise in a serious dialogue. You said,
monster pro headphones, also came back clear, this afternoon, I promised to pick her up, but you call out of the car accident I immediately rushed to the scene, I did not think You lied to me.
my tears could not inhibit the fall, I'm sorry, I did not mean.
you sighed, frowning shoot my head, Well, all right, You are a child, I should not blame you.
I pull over to cover your hand in my face, my tears fell on all of your palms. at least once, is not it, At least this time you have chosen a first-come see me, as long as this time in relation to a sense of satisfaction, and should so be it. my voice as hoarse, but that calm tone, weekly evening morning, you told me you move through the heart, even if a minute to like me?
when I say this keeping a close eye to your eyes, you stared at me for ages, and then head to one side. I clearly heard you say, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
April earth god, why do I feel the cold wind penetrated the bone marrow, they are actually my own illusions, they are actually wishful misunderstanding.
You seem to think that I will be crying, I forgot to look forward to your anxiety, but relieved, I'm not sad because I love you, I am better than anyone in the world to be like you, I love the world more than any one person should be more Yeah like you.
your face grew strange, has never seen you look so sad, usually a smile to a sad mouth hanging arc, you get beads on his wrist outrageous to wear down on my wrist, and then adjust the tightness, you get the side of his mouth, this is my mother was alive to help me find security and peace, and now I gave you, you wear me honest forward, never allowed to take off.
wow I finally gave the cry, my pierced ears are inflamed, the pain in 16 holes to remind me 16 years of age this year, love, not.
[five]
Su Ching also more beautiful than the pictures I have, I see you holding hands when walking together, think of a word: they are servants of the people gray servants only wearing a red clothes. You guys look good, then you call me beautiful when I am very guilty conscience, say that sailed the seven seas make life difficult for the water, with such beauty around her, where my other Yongzhisufen you also got into his stuff .
back to school to see her teacher, there are many low-grade little sister heard the news went to look at the legendary history of the most talented school school beauty, teachers were praised for her tongue, just turn around again Why did such a good girl sigh with you. you are not in the traditional sense has always been a good boy, but you are an obedient child. long after I learned of from others, the Soviet Union is also clear is your favorite girl her mother, and you hate to break weep mean, you can still choose her rather than with me.
I know, joy is not only favorable factors, but also missed and regret. like me and you.
night you invited a lot of people eat, you called me, I refused to die. You sank over the phone for a long time, then pressing a low voice say, Lin Zhuoyi, even if I beg you . Do you say this is the case of a I Diukuiqijia, but nothing I could not eat at the dinner table is also clear look at me,
Monster Beats Headphones, eyes some suspicion, I guilty of death do not have to wear their teeth.
way she told me to go with her stomach on the street pharmacies buy, pay, she casually asked me for change, I quickly open the purse turned to the moment I opened my wallet I know I've made a mistake, your photo in my wallet's stood upright, the picture looks like two people love each other, I become a clown in this spectator instant.
I was the first Supporting Actress, and I want to add a little when the heroine is not your role, but said the director, the script already written. heroine back, ending the opera is.
carrying her face light, I can not see her face, that she had asked me, you like him, right? but did not use, you do not like any of the results. I laughed, I like he is my own business, to What do the results.
you let me know, love can never forget that love can never give up, sometimes, love can be a man thing.
also clear to I want that picture, I hesitated whether or not to pay out a word she crushed my hesitation, she said, not nostalgia, and He is with me abroad, I this is for your own good, the heart was completely dead will not sad.
I froze, followed by, deep in the heart of severe colic, ear has a huge roar, as if there was a big hand to strangle my throat, unable to pronounce a voice. do not know how long before I recovered, but the sound is not even their own understanding of the strange, the throat repeatedly covered with dust, in that case, the photo on the left to me to be a commemoration of it.
night in the bar drinking with you all around, I want a lot of Long Island iced tea. I've always thought it was tea, because I do not want drunk talking nonsense, but you'll feel that I know that a few glasses of Long Island iced tea not tea, it is the wine. All the memories are on the horizon, I still clearly remember the first time you come to me, his face, asked me if I Linzhuo Yi, then I do not think you are hearsay in Unconventional unruly boys, you are so good, warm smile, like winter afternoon sun, reaching the depths of the soul.
you came to see me, I forgot your eyes are dim for you to laugh, according to tonight left the silver cylinder , Encounter is the dream still fear. You said, you're drunk. but I knew I was not drunk, I am conscious than ever, I roll up their trouser legs to show you exposed ankle,
bose headphones, a black weekly words.
My dear, this is your last name, my story.
It was the last time you appeared at my side, three days later, you and Sue are also clear to Bordeax boarded the plane together. you finally leave the complete me.
[six]
you go then I will lock themselves, and I can not like anybody, you seem like a specimen, become frozen in a crystal resin in amber.
me all the way to grow, gradually lost their original clarity, but you bring my mark, I still have it.
2007 in the summer I listened to the side of the see you online and also clear the engagement photos, you were wearing very ordinary clothes, but there are two fingers interlocking rings sparkling shine.
I love to smoke Marlboro your side to something .
pieces to appear back to 2003 that afternoon, you take me to the bar to drink, you have to Jack Daniel, I want a soda. then you drink a lot, sanity gradually blurred, you have me as a sunny, you grabbed me and asked me why I should betray you. drunk you strength to really big, I can not break free, and you brought me back to your home.
Yes,
Dre Beats Headphones, in your home you do to me things like that. but you do not remember who I am, you call me, but also clear, is also clear.
I came out from your home to wear the ear hole, and I The face is thrown because the shy red tide, my most precious to me like most people, I do not think you are going to my responsibility, my own thing my own responsibility. I wear 16 pierced ears, I know you on behalf of the age of 16, best years I give to you.
and April Fool day, I call you to the hospital to pick me up, you see me standing in front of you safe and sound When furious, because I pick up is also clear that you delay. when I chase behind you when the feel is about to die immediately, but fortunately you was mad at me or not a.
you angry so terrible, so I will never tell you is go to the hospital the day I had a surgery. what kind of surgery, that is, it can not have a baby born to do surgery. I said, I do take responsibility for themselves, I really do not blame you, what is wrong with it, are willing ah my own.
beads you gave me after I thought you'd really good, so I went to a tattoo, much deliberation decided the sting of your last name, a simple one word is all I love.
time will gradually buried the secret, and I hope that all a sense of happiness that you Nana. I found through a variety of ways your blog every day, peeping in your life. Every time when looking at your blog I have been pumping Marlboro, I know a friend in France it also not forgetting a name is a man love a woman.
your life so quiet ah, but a recent log let me see you cried, that was a name of the game to answer questions, the last The problem is, you said the biggest lie in this life is. Your answer is, a girl asked me if I did not like her, I said I'm sorry.
the real answer is two words I love her.