Wiped away tears, watching my beauteous insist

the One

my first day at go, to kas long ashe namely married, but his handsome arrival still arrest my eye. I am too especially concerned about him, look at me passionately dedicated. He will work in my period, deliberately waited at the gate and said, give a elevator to take me family, he would in my weary, in a timely means and handed me a glass of coffee, he would disagree with my colleagues while I cleverly decided because me These bits and chips of love, how can I not baited but. However, the reality namely he has married and chance unbridgeable breach between us, even though I was so favor him, so concerned approximately him, but I can not do anything, I absence pure light of love, do not absence apt drift according in the ambiguity in . This vague and ambiguous sensibilities, I'm exhausted, but too impair him.

Finally, the day he took me to walk along the waterfront, the wind fresh and cold, air mess my hair, but also agitated my thoughts.
he gently took my hand, with a straight face said to me: .
I know he wants an response, but I can not give, I can not destroy away because of his selfish family, it makes my conscience, And I do not agree with my family to wed a divorced male.

his silence, his eyes flashed Tolerance of afflict. We stood silently, gazing into the sea, a long time, do not say a word, a excellent deep sorrow enveloped us.
night, I buried myself in the yard, tearful for a long time, why is this so? If you miss, why let us love, if predestined, why do we pass it? I apparently kas long asour feelings have not truly started, has ended, the understanding, let my heart spill infinite desolation, like a grand fireworks leaving behind only knowing about the cold.

【two】

I think I get married.
auspicious day full house visitors, colleagues have come to me to celebrate, except he did not come, the day after I listened he drank drunk.
husband is a chapter, genuine and aboveboard man, good to me in every feasible way.
I go to work again after the honeymoon, he not refused to talk with me, and I kept the distance with him, once and for all, we are now married people, and I can not let whichever gossip scandal my marriage. Thus, we gradually drifted apart, later, I heard he had an happening, but also heard that he kept a mistress, his wife began to distress, all his people, intentionally or unintentionally always say to me, and I simulate not mind the look, gently laugh, everything has nothing to do with me, everything with me about it?

apparatuses downturn, low disburse is tough to nourish life, endowed with the economic, he Zenken willing to dull the mind, he decided to resign, into business, and soon his companies to take fashion. Three years afterward, the city became one of the altitude ten. He began a household appoint, he also emerged frequently on television and in newspapers. He is so beauteous to see, as he was amused in the meantime, there are some lost heart, and often marvel whether when I would adopt him, and now anything is not all from me.

【three】

in his high-spirited, grand plans, when her husband laid off, the same annual, our unit began downsizing, I have not been spared. Happens at this time, I was connate a daughter. Feeling extremely depressed because I did not milk, only to buy expensive milk abrasive, the kin increasingly straitened circumstances. Since her husband laid off, the whole folk have changed, his blame aboard others, cheap self-esteem,GHD Dark Styler, he began drinking, drunk, threw things nigh afterward the start, blaming society, blaming the government, blaming always the agreeable people over his life. Mad each time he drinks, I must wash up the shambles, looking at the debris cluttered house, my heart began falling individually.

as a matron and her husband I also suffer the same position, I thought to get her husband's solace, capable to depend on her husband's elbow, whatever, see the way to her husband now, I must be muscular, must sustain the family. I judged to go out looking for work, I went hounding for job posting, to apply for a family, but my old and educational qualifications, no units are compliant to use me. I am full of displeasure is when I saw his business in the recruitment, and give priority to laid-off operators. I location that recruitment placards posted on the news clutched tightly in his hands, inner struggle has been reiterated, I should not go?

lying in bed, goes on the newspaper I had been grasping the fold state. All night, I did not nap a wink, I really need this job,GHD Mini Styler, but I do not know what an outlook to face him, how he would think of me, ridicule? Sympathy? Or ......
morning, when I bloodshot eyes broad open, woke the sleeping husband, he seemed very anxious.
: I want his business to apply.
: Go, go, you are not back to find him now, he amplified, you go to his mistress to do it!
I am angry, the heart would also have finally decided to hesitate, I ignore him, got out of bed and began dressing. Is it, why not, I just want to live, just want to earn a milk money for his daughter, what's wrong with me!
I'm looking for a decent raiment, open the closet only to find, has 3 years to buy new clothing. Three years ago, I had to dress the clothes still fashionable, nevertheless it looks very age fashioned, but I do not concern so much. Front of the mirror, I was shocked to have the wrinkles I had, those years of vicissitudes and then a thick powder could not hide. Inferiority raid into the chamber, I even horrified ourselves like to see him.

I came to his affair, first fill in a manner, then interview, it seems all quite well, in my long out of expiration A responsible person calling my name:
I came to an uneasy atmosphere, common director of luxury offices, Long Lelong hair, gently opened the door, he sat on the wide sofa, seeing me in , nod I sat in the preside inverse him, our very near, it makes me feel very uncomfortable. He did not speak, just looked at me carefully, I bowed his brain in embarrassment, like trying to hide my anguish, but the vicissitudes of my face and clothes, are all in the leakage of my difficult situation.
Finally, he said: >





【d】

to this sentence, I go to work. Because of the fashionable work are completely unfamiliar with, I paid a lot of energy, there is no time to a standing ovation his daughter, put her daughter's task to care for her husband, but he constantly went out drinking, when I came home tired 1 day and look for starve hungering daughter, touching the chilly wall, I do not know how numerous times calling, those days, tears as my only outlet.

my teeth to hold it down, finally got everyone's agreement. When I took one month's salary, I secretly Dundao corner tears, tears like a broken beads and kept rolling. Cried for a when, I obliterated away tears, went to the supermarket, I have long time not shopping, I bought new clothes for his daughter and snacks,GHD Benefit Styler, the poor daughter does not pass through a new dress,GHD Pure Styler, and her husband want to buy What, think of him all day long in the slovenly, his face ballast Hu, buy him a razor.

I am full of joy to carrying colossal bags to return home, her husband had fair been drinking, I put razors to him, he froze a moment to drawing baleful it fell to the floor, Looking at the razor has been broken, hearing to the cries of horrified daughter, I sat slumped on the ground, what, what am I doing bad? Why should so treat me? Picked up her daughter, kissing her audacity, sadness and despair penetrate every cell of my body.

【V】

month later, because of my exertions, was subserved to Business Explorer, I started outreach activities. Just when I thought that eventually comes a lull, due to the negligence of her husband, her daughter into a fever and pneumonia without timely notice. Night to attach to my daughter all night, but also cheer up the work during the day, days in caustic insomnia and fatigue, I was the morale of trance. The results of my work a solemn fault, the corporation lost 10 million. When I know, the eyes of a dark, nearly fainted, how can I do? What shall I go to refund these Qiana.
second time he called me into his office, I sat across from him, palms sweat a tiny bit of a leakage, as restless as murderers awaiting sentence .
: how do you unravel that?
: I will try to reimburse you.
: What can you come back?
Yes ah, what shall I pay it? Tears in his eyes, circular and round, I tried to restrain myself, do not let it fall. I still have it? I think the traction on the house, I have my own house, it should be the value of 10 million.
I was after hours speak,GHD Midnight Collection, he says,
: In fact, you should know, I've always loved you, did not get you, has always been my repent, I would like to end this desire.
no doubt, which to me is a deadly temptation. With love, at last I loved him, missed him, and also my regret, and Lee, I can reserve house and work. Should I quickly promised him?
I was hesitant, he chuckled: it. The aboriginal, aboriginal, ah, three years not only granted him a successful profession, allowing him the mentality change. He is no longer before him, in his eyes, anything can be used to interchange, even people who share the feelings of heart. In fact, the feelings he has for us do not value before, but I have some regret that it did not get his aspirations for the intonation makes me much humiliation, do not want to touch hearts with memories to final as a soap bubble-like rupture.
I stood up, his hands on his table, talked down to him: looking for any juvenile madame, so why waste it on me has become old. money, and I will, but one point no less. once thought to miss you, is wrong, but I right, right So thorough.

six】 【

back home,GHD Carry Case Styler, her husband is not, I carried my daughter found him, he is friends Tuibeihuanzhan wine on the chart.
a word for word I said to her husband: , my daughter and I can only rely on you, otherwise, we only slept in the streets. Eventually, he took my hand, husband. Heard her husband a long quiet, and then turned to leave. I look forward to working with me day and night accompanied by the house, is so sorrowful, and tears again fell silent.
At this time, her husband went back to bed, his hand that he broke the razor, I'll get a clean themselves, and then go back to work, OK? I was so envious of him, so terrified of losing you, I was also selfish feelings for their own interests, time and anew to hurt you, forgive me, OK? then I will not let you cry, let us start again .
husband painfully kept wiping tears for me, but rub a drip, then drop down, is always just rubbed finish.
However, I know, cried this time, I will not cry, everything will be alright, I deem her husband, but also believe in themselves.