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Reprinted from 420603190 at 13:06 on July 28th, 2009 Read (loading. ..) Comments (0) Category: Personal Diary We finally entered the community,
ended the custody of the school teacher's career,
the end of the day parents my love,
brother from their parents there is also the end of the happiness money.
we moved out from home, carrying their own luggage as new the old can no longer find a cheap room rent the house breaking down, and began career in life.
our eyes full of curiosity,
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our blood flowing with passion,
our thin wallet is unprecedented.
the first boss in the face of the first colleagues first job, we are so impassioned, we think we do anything, we will soon be able to create an illusion is their own world, full of confidence in our future. And want admiring glances from others to find a little bit proud of the capital.
gradually we know ......
fact, reality and their ideals have gone very differently.
how insidious vicious boss, colleagues how snobbish petty, how boring work is boring
rent water and electricity charges
Chousi a man. Payday as if out of reach, what seemed like a store display for others, we also found that only the weekend before went to his alma mater, Xia Guang feel relieved, only to chat with old classmates and really fun to play, only in the pedestrian street beauty point of view it is not boring guy. We lament the world
gradually become fast that we simply know what to do.
school year, and soon you will find the wages of a few thousand dollars is nothing. Soon you will find the time and money to obtain personal life is sacrificed for the price. Soon you will find yourself a little bit a little money but not happiness.
soon you will hate yourself,
cheap timberland boots, hate their own complex and sophisticated. Soon you will hate the winter, too cold, too lonely, and lonely.
Classmates to see you occasionally, but you do not want to keep talking.
you will occasionally think of his former best friend, and then give him / her a boring phone, and then find themselves old.
even find themselves terribly mature now, a very complex matter, you look to see through, and you is based on your understanding of the dark. You want to be happy we must take a lifetime to his first pain.
found when you work when you like rock music, to prove that you are still struggling, when you work blue light music that you like,
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work know, there are air-conditioned offices, not as noisy classroom. Work to know, school is the game of love, now love is the deal. Work to know, thousands of pieces of sometimes eating is also a need.
gradually we became deep and is no longer a naive joke to laugh, not quick to complain chaos, nor the deepest secret then easily with other people say. We also know that in the end that is mature or depressed,
timberland boots sale, the mirror to see, but found it strange his face was terrible. Gradually, we seem to Taichetaiwu
, and what are seen through, everything illusory, then what are we indifferent, not seat of the bus, things do not bother to see a small sneak management, and eat small losses Think no problem, but before we worry about at the end of each day what to eat dinner, and tea at the time with everyone wondering whether or not to pay their own, in the month before go to bed Forget spending and counted.
gradually what we feel is not a matter of fact, no money,
mens timberland boots, no name no status, height, too short and too dark skin looks too hard to read, what we must look at other people's face , where walking seems inferior, and sometimes wish I could cut a vein hanged themselves jumping off poison.
gradually we do not want to read, and did not want to talk about ideals, and did not want to talk about the future, and would not spend too much energy cranky. We do not want to hear music, do not want to see the movie. Where we start to indulge in wine, indulge in side the city, indulging in low-level premises. The concept of family more and more blurred, feeling more and more distant family, in addition to occasionally return home in a dream, we can make use of a cold at the most phone lines and talk about some of his family life began to deviate from it, but Laodielaoma see how much they grow a few roots of white hair and the addition of wrinkles.
see someone pitched battle on the pitch, we seem to want to go to his legs, in fact, has been a long time without moving the body can not support how far we run again, and almost deserted skills to We suspect that those who play the age thing is not the last generation.
streets wearing avant-garde looking boys and girls, we began to show disgust, but in fact, forget that he is worse than previous years. Encountered in a large crowd of students under the affectionate couple behavior, our eyes have become a scorn and criticize them fiercely and tacky.
through lottery sales points, we can not help but also took out some of the money to buy a few of the books note, and then every day after the dream in a million the number of how many million to buy a house million to buy a car tens of thousands of wild extravagance, but every time the lottery jackpot despite repeatedly been missed but always with their own, so disappointing in the short-term, we continue to persevere in dreaming.
gradually our life and values, views on love have changed. Do not think we have any means to climb what was wrong, and we strive to return there to say on the nose, we laugh at the so-called chastity, the so-called sense of responsibility, hope and even to find one-night stand.
we began to focus on the street car is a BMW or a running Alto, which concerns how the lounge bar lady drinker, it is more concerned about Which mobile phone fork human eye, attention to which brand more style to wear suits. However, it is only concerned about it, because we know both the BMW or Alto, we can not afford, Miss bar drinker then no, we do not like how people can, as cell phones and suits, or bought for a long time with their old style.
I do not know when to begin, we feel angry about what had happened, and we could not understand more and more hideous face of the boss, more of my colleagues can not stand the dirty dog, the more and more unbearable to live like this. So we both lamented the bad luck eager to change their destiny, we looked around, looking for opportunities,
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Finally one day, we, like volcanic eruptions, as a impulse to the boss fired me. Pack up and march out of the office the moment we leave the kind of bold heroes and no regrets, just surprise and ridicule from colleagues in the eyes of mixed faint to see a trace of frustration, but do not know waiting for their own, will be the endless pain and torture. We soon found that although
own qualifications and will not lower the work experience, and wherever he goes the same as running the company went from that company, one after another to Apply , but simply can not find a suitable job.
time every day that passes, the work was still far away I do not know Zichou Mao Yin, wallets more and more deflated, the day the rent is also getting closer, our hearts, such as burnt, with doomsday killed. We also started a bit too hasty to regret his resignation, and also began the idea of initiation take the risk, but not really to rob the bank kidnapped or something, to the extreme low mood, temper our big, well Tansheng also rang .
Fortunately, such days is finally over. We went to a new work unit. This time though we more or less excited, but more cautious and gloomy. We will not hold any illusions on the boss, do not think he will give us more good treatment, we will not talk about confidences and colleagues, because we already know, can not be a conflict of interest with the people who become friends, of course, we are no longer foolish to put this work as hard as the cause, only to here as a springboard for their own, if given the chance to immediately leave.
next life boring and tasteless, but we gradually do not care. We do not want bars, and do not want what the meaning of life, and also started a little old classmates Huabutouji, the previously little contact friends, now do not want to contact, even if they sometimes receive a phone call , only casually Hanghang yo yo payable few. Although the wine was often drunk, but often have a single drink drunk alone. This time the depth of our loneliness is bone marrow, our pain is more real and delicate. We miss unprecedented
those years in school, we spent half a day holding a graduation photo of fat, we do not want to go and then wandered to his alma mater, and if by chance, to see who are familiar with incomparable scenery, the heart of the crest of a wave of sorrow and grief really, but we will not shed tears.
course, we still often the Internet, but most of the time to pass the time. We are likely hooked on games like Legend, but rarely patronize the Classmates website, but do not want to shout at the top.
us without a teacher's learned self-deception, although we also hate the night when dreams of their own hypocrisy and inaction, but also hate this way of life than pigs and dogs, but We like the imprisoned bird, simply do nothing. Sometimes we laugh at themselves like to find a lot of excuses to explain their certain behavior, even though we know that in fact there is no means to do so, but also unnecessary.
we began to hear news of old classmates marriage, promotion of the message. Then we think of so and so casually look at the school, and then we can not help lamenting the relentless passage of time, and then we wanted to in the dusty diary write something, then we unconsciously turned his eyes a bit wet the. Our eyes wide open at night in bed, but not depressed in the dark distraction, they will want to have extra people by his side.
a lot of memories will be upon us like the tides. We have crush on the people, who have sought but failed the people who loved each other once, are all to flashed through his mind, then, my heart will be a kind of sentimental, it is purely sentimental. Because we know and love has been with us is really very far away.
We tried to make friends through a variety of ways, but often exchanges several times, we would not want to with them. That is because they too do not know reality or we are too closed. We then filled with emotion, in this masked a lot of people live in a society, had to make a true friend turned out to be so difficult. We also try to date, but love is not so simple to eat drink, or in the end have failed. We continue to hold high underachievement single banner walk in the streets.
the kind of student that we miss the simple affair, very envious of those young people who can sit in the classroom, they can read very much like a university, but we also know that throwing how to recover out of the water, how could After Past time over again?
increasing our capacity for liquor, drink a dozen beers on end in front of a finger can not be seen as two fingers. Our wide waist more and more crude back belly growing, the growing number of fat was very dazzling. We climbed the stairs of the action more and more clumsy, more and more difficult, only to the third floor had been out of breath.
our yearning to get outside and look around, but afraid of reduced horizon, miserable. We increasingly understand the frustration beyond our control in rivers and lakes. We feel more and more mentally and physically exhausted, depressed at a loss ... ...
However, after the long way to go, however, we have to live. Either pain or pleasure, we must face. After all, trying to evade
also inescapable. Therefore, we still hope that tomorrow is a big day sunny.
And ultimately we still believe that they will be out of the shadows, come out ahead.
Looking back, the lights dim not Iraqis, and only their own dreams gently swaying in the wind.
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